Tuesday, March 1

I think I can do more...

So I don't know if I am the only person who struggles with this, but I kick myself daily because of it.  I always have big plans to do for the day and then 9:00pm rolls around and I somehow realize that I haven't even done half of the things I wanted to do.  Sometimes (ok if i'm honest sometimes is more like most of the time) it's because I get distracted by catching up with my DVR programs, or waste my time seeing what my friends are up to on facebook, or reading yet another blog of something else I WANT to accomplish.  Sometimes it's because the time just goes by way too quickly or I get sidetracked by cleaning something so unimportant... like rearranging my marker drawer instead of cleaning off my desk!  No one sees inside my marker drawer, so why don't I do the more important tasks first?  So then I get even more frustrated that I haven't done the things I NEEDED to get done or the things that I would LIKE to do-like paint or create something for a friend.  And then when I realize that I've somehow wasted away another day I get frustrated, and then realize I have twice as much to do the next day.  Now most people then work extra hard to complete their tasks... I'm not most people.  Somehow when my to-do-list gets over my head I panic and basically lock up.  That means the next day I don't even want to get out of my pajamas, all I want to do is crawl onto the couch and waste MORE of the day.  If I miraculously have a productive day, then the next day I can't wait to wake up, make a full hearty breakfast for my husband, do a quick load of laundry, make the bed-and my day has already been more productive than other days.  Why is this?  Is this just me?  I'm sure there has to be something out there to help me get out of this horrible rut.  But I bet that I could waste a whole day searching through blogs for an answer.  Maybe there is a solution that someone has found to get out and STAY out of this rut.  I'd LOVE to hear it.  I think another thing that I have to realize is that I CAN'T  do it all.  I want to be the best cook in the world, a super creative baker, keep a perfectly clean house, create lots of painting and sell my work, make cards to give to my friends, WRITE in those cards to keep up with family and friends, pretty much just make anything.... I'm already preparing for kids and the things that I could make them-like knitting cute hats and sweaters.  I think I should be able to do it all.  I haven't even been able to finish knitting a kitchen rag without it looking like a spaceship.  I can't do it all.  And sometimes I get sidetracked.  There.  I said it.  Maybe my first step to overcoming this problem is to admit I have one!  And of course, if there is ANYONE who reads my crazy ramblings and you have a solution, I'd MORE than love to hear it!!!

So although this picture isn't really current, it is kind of how I feel... Beat up and sad.  This is actually from a couple of months ago when Andrew and I went rollerblading, and he "tackled" me at the end of our driveway.  I got a minor concussion and all scraped up.  Sometimes I feel like my days tackle me more than I tackle them.  Would love your thoughts and opinions on how to turn this table around and I can be the one tackling the day!


  1. Bekki, funny you should blog about this! This is how I feel on my off days (3 on 3 off). The winter has just sucked and all the technology just sucks us in. Then I feel like crap and have done NOTHING allllll day, just as you say! I understand and feel the exact same way. Wouldn't life sometimes be much more interesting for all if we went back a couple of years (even 20 yrs). Just wanted to know your not the only one! :-)
    Head Up, Sheila

  2. Have you seen my house?! lol Girl, I am right with ya! I have ups and downs...more downs than ups i think :) But definitely admitting it, not just to yourself, but in a way that the world can see, is a huge first step! You've opened yourself up to encouragement and motivation! Love ya!

  3. Don't be so hard on yourself...I think we all have those days (I'm with you that I may have more than most) But every night I go to bed and think about how tomorrow is a new day with new possibilities and opportunities to be better...just because I think about this doesn't mean it happens but sometimes it does :) oh and I've been meaning to start painting again for over a year...maybe I will be succeed tomorrow :) Love you tons!